I’ve distinguished something big today: I always have to be strong and do it alone… and that, my friends, is what is at the core of me not breaking through this weight barrier. I need help. I need accountability… and I need to tell the truth to the people around me when I’m struggling.
I’m a hustler. We’ve come to know this about me, haven’t we? However, there just seems to be another layer, after another layer, after another layer to how much I BS myself. This journey has been tough. I’ve been drilling deep down into my feelings and taking a magnifying glass to the places where I stop or get stuck. As a result, I’ve distinguished that I get into a pattern. I have about a 21 day cycle where I start up, motivated and lean into my fear and stubbornness, but by the end of three weeks, I lose my energy, get tired and worn down and give in to my feelings and go “underground.” I’m interrupting that cycle today. No more going underground. I’m going to stop thinking I have to do it alone and lean on those around me. It starts by telling them what’s going on.
It’s hard, but it is going to be worth it. I am committed to living life out from underneath my past trauma. I want to be the one in charge, making choices that give me a full and happy life, instead of being on auto pilot and not facing the things that scare and stop me.
Are you with me? #30MoreDays #FinishStrong