Being vulnerable and transparent is not easy for me. I automatically think that this is weakness… but in truth, it’s courage and strength. I realized this week that I don’t even tell my inside truth to those closest to me–like my husband. Half of the time, he has no idea the demons and internal urges I’m fighting. Usually, I just shove it down and put a smile on my face and keep moving… or, worst case scenario, I’m a total crab.
I love the quote: “Old ways won’t open new doors.” In order to become a NEW person, I must behave in NEW ways and this transparency is at the root of what is required for me to move through my emotions and replace overeating with something healthier.
I’m struggling and I’m being honest about it. It’s not easy but I know it’s going to be worth it. Pushing through 47 years of automatic behavior takes work, and there are a lot of ups and downs.
Very few things that are worthwhile come without a cost.
Ain’t that the truth? But, interestingly enough, I am finding that when I share my innermost thoughts and fears, and, actually ASK for help, I usually get it. I don’t have to do this all alone.