Right now, I feel like I’m pulling on this tiny thread sticking out of my life and as I pull, it just keeps going and going as I watch the sweater it’s attached to unravel. It’s apparently neverending.
Epiphanies keep coming one after another, so much so that this morning I am up at 4 a.m. and my head is spinning. So much inside there going on, I’m not really sure even how to organize my thoughts.
Where am I going? What am I doing? How am I going to get there? I really have no fricking idea. What I do know is that I’m a control freak. I like formulaic approaches to solving problems. Step 1 + Step 2 + Step 3 = RESULT. It’s simple and straightforward and you always know where you’re going.
This 100 day journey/experiment/project is just not THAT. It’s unfolding itself inside and outside of me. It’s bringing people in and out of my life to guide me, and frankly, I have no idea what I’m doing, or how it’s going to turn out. I just need to trust the process and go where God is leading me.
Did I say I like things simple? Well, that’s simple: surrender. Stop trying to control and direct everything and just BE PRESENT.